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Wednesday, October 08, 2008
I thought I had everything planned properly. A flawless plan. But I am starting to wonder if that flawless plan is not so flawless after all. Worry. Scared. Anxious... ...is all I feel.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
My apologies for not updating. The past few months have just gone by too quickly. It still seems too good to be true that now I am a graduate. A Bachelor of Law (LL.B) Hons holder. Finals came & went, graduation came & went...  ...and so did my life. Crazy. I am sitting here at half 2 in the morning in the new apartment reflecting back on those times. I sometimes wonder what is in store for me now in my life. To be honest, I am not glad to be back in a city. I wished I was back in the little town of Aberystwyth -- where I have the freedom to take walks by the prom (whatever time it is without worry about my safety), to be able to walk from one place to another (without needing to take the tubes), or even to have the town & kebab shops only a corner away from the house. The comfort of it. Now, I don't even see a kebab shop nearby! I miss that. Furthermore, I wonder if I had made the right choice when I left Rachel's (although I was only a casual worker) to come to the big city - jobless. Maybe I was really crazy to have given up that job I had. Work at Rachel's had been really entertaining. The different people that you meet everyday (casual & permanent staffs) from all the different shifts & different things you do (depending on which department you're in). Maybe I should have listened to some of the people there & had just applied for a full-time position there. But then again, I did not get a law degree to end up working there. Who knows? Maybe John was right. He'll see me again. We'll see. Job hunt at the moment has not been productive. Let's just say it has not progressed at all. Did send in 1-2 applications but heard nothing yet. Then again, I have been warned about getting a job here. Mom gave me the choice to go back to M'sia; to live back home, to get me a car of my own & to start work at a basic graduate salary. Yet, I refuse that too-good-to-be-true offer just so I could remain in the UK. What is it that I can't let go of this country? Stratford is not a bad place but sometimes (everyday, to be exact), I wished I was back in ol' Aberystwyth, the little Welsh town where everything is in Welsh & English. I'm homesick, not of KL but of Aber. I do miss the people I use to see on a daily basis. Terribly. If only we have kept in touch. I wish I had the answer; the answer to so many unanswered questions...
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Easter holidays came & went. 3 weeks of holidays now over. The last term is giving me mixed emotions - I can't believe it won't be long now before graduation, yet again I will be sad to leave Aber as my year here has been filled with great memories (and of course, sad to be leaving the people too!), and yet again, terrified of the coming exams. The final one. Help! Plus it doesn't help that I have got 6 papers to sit for. Easter holiday was pleasant - though for most of it I was in Aber, but the town wasn't as dead as it was during Christmas. Though I got to spend a night with the Lyn & the other girls in Liverpool and also another night in the beautiful town of Chester (which I love much!). Acted like animals in the zoo. What can I say? We wanted to blend in with the animals in their habitats. *winks* I'm still contemplating to go or not to go for MayBall. It sounds exciting, really. The line-up isn't a bad one either with Sugababes, Vengaboys, Bjorn Again (woo-hoo for ABBA songs!) and many more on the main stage. It will definitely be a night to remember with friends. What more, it's the last year of uni - possibly the last ball I'll ever get to go for...So what's the problem then? I suppose the fact that everyone's unsure if they're going or not. After all, friends makes the night even more memorable - not the performances! It snowed on Sunday (also the besties birthday!!!). Unfortunately I fell fast asleep while waiting for it to snow & by the time I got up, most of it had melted. Boo-hoo. Didn't get to have snowball fights or even make a mini snowman - like how Lyn made one and sent me an MMS at 1am! It was a joy to have opened a multimedia message while half-awake only to be greeted with a picture of a snowman greening at you. I'm glad people are back in Aber. It's so good to see familiar faces once again & am loving the fact that it is still bright at 7 in the evening! Much work to do, yet I'm still bumming around watching shows on iPlayer. I'm hooked. I wished I had a tv - to watch more series and well, footie! Remember the times when dad & I use to watch it & we used to drive mom, the lil' rascal & the maid crazy. :p It was grandad's birthday 2 weeks ago - a night before Irene's wedding dinner. The little rascal sent me pictures of both nights & how I wished I had been there! Looking at the smile plastered on grandpa's face when the family threw him a surprise celebration at a restaurant & also Irene's wedding - it was simple, yet she looked as stunning as ever!   Happy 90th, grandpa! <3   Grandpa with his daughters. :)  Took this picture at the beach the other day when it was so sunny and warm. Reminded me of this: Along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky. In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints. Other times there were one set of footprints. This bothered me because I noticed that During the low periods of my life when I was Suffering from anguish, sorrow, or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, So I said to the Lord, "You promised me, Lord, that if I followed You, You would walk with me always. But I noticed that during the most trying periods Of my life there have only been One set of prints in the sand. Why, When I have needed You most, You have not been there for me?" The Lord replied, "The times when you have seen only one set of footprints Is when I carried you." Me :)
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Guess!!! guess where I am at the moment... :)  Blissful night at Alma De Cuba :D Much to write about. Will update when I get back to Aber! xoxo.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
When you're feeling all emo & moody, it's great to have the people around you who just makes you smile no matter how bad you are feeling. Thank you, you wonderful people! :) A conversation on some inside topic between Carrie & I between classes today which I find amusing: Carrie: ******* is just special Me: Special?! *puzzled look* Carrie: Oh, my special means stupid. Me: ..........!!!! I don't know why but I suddenly just feel like going back this Easter holidays. To get away from the weather & just to get away from everything. I wish things were easier... xx
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